We just had to follow the trend..

Did you happen to watch team Malaysia in action today ? ( Hockey Champions Trophy in bukit jalil). And we just had to follow the current trend of wearing sleeveless jerseys !!! Hahahaha.. metrosexual look !
I'll post the pic later. Tomorrow's edition is not out yet ; thus no pictures available.

We look so ugly ..with the yellow and black stripes. Sleeveless... haaaarrk..what a sight !

Meeting old friends

Just came back from Uptown ; I;ve or we've ( the unofficial kamcheng badminton club ) been regulars at Sallehs since we started playing badminton in a nearby hall. I guess the 222 "mat salleh" will be disappointed with our absence for the past few months. We were the mentekedarah customers.. the best available ! Uptown is much nearer for a glass of teh tarik.. ( yeah right.. we usually end up eating mixed grill ; steak , chicken chop and lamb on "pirate" sauce dish !! ) after a hard fought game !

It was a good turn out last week as the "US" trip gang having a mini reunion with Badak. Man..it had been quite some time since Izzat , Kamal and me seeing him ! He came all the way down from Ampang and that was sweet ! Hai was there too and the whole gang certainly had lots to catch up ! Including Dil , Mafiz , Edrin and Zaini.. we were so loud ( macam tak biasa ) .. and I went back home like 3.30am ! The call next day was bad and a killer ; not to exclude the results anxiety which came out that day !

We were the culprits again today , making lots of noise with corny jokes ; laughing out loud like drunkards! Azad came about ; having his "last" outing before he is off to Mekah for Haj next week. It was fun reminiscing old times ; esp after the influx of old pictures of ourselves in facebook this past few weeks. It was also an occasion to celebrate me passing my Part 1 and Kamal , who just passed his PACES ! Alhamdulillah !
But of course ; learning my lesson from last week , we took off at midnight because I can't bare doing my call with my mind half dead !

Clean up..

during the exam period.. in fact 4-5 months towards it !

A major clean up.. fuuh..berhabuk !!

Jerry McGuire

It was one of those moments , a sudden massive flood of words in my mind ( not that I am schizophrenic !! ) . Remember Jerry McGuire when he suddenly sat down and wrote his Mission Statement ? I dunno what got into me the other night.. and today.. in Utusan Malaysia "

Sistem Latihan Doktor perlu dirombak drastik .

What was i thinking about ? It had been quite some time though since i last wrote in Malay !! :)

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Update 12.30pm : wahh.. it was so difficult to get your hands on the hard copy of Utusan. Being in SS2 where the dominants are not Malays ; I had to shop hop before it could be found.. Dahlah terceruk !! Hahaha.. jakun betul..


Sunday 25/11/07 .. Its out in the STAR as well !!

Reorganize houseofficership

Primary Part 1 Master Anaesthesiology

It was a very jittery day. I was on call after a three weeks - some may consider it cruel considering the emotional turmoil one is having. My mind was everywhere and it showed so much when i induced my first patient for the day ! I did not reject to the roster maker earlier , perhaps at that time too numb to even think about passing yesterday ; results day.

Alhamdulillah. I passed. I passed ? yup..i passed. My specialist informed me earlier in the morning secretly before the official results were posted in the department. I am so thankful to god for his graciousness ; I felt so overwhelmed yesterday. Lost my voice , not because i shouted or screamed my lungs out so much ( hehehehe ) ; but i guess it was due to the tremendous stress for the whole of last week.
Not everybody made it though , and that is the sad part. I felt sad for my colleagues who were unlucky ; to the extent few may not being able to continue the course. I am devastated because i know that these people are excellent doctors , a rare breed that is very dedicated to their patients.

1957 Hati Malaya

Being a history buff , it will be a sin for me not to watch this movie. What prevented me from doing so was my preparation for the exam I have just taken. I was tempted then to just go and watch it but i promised myself it will be the first thing I do after I'm done with the cruncher.
As expected , I was lucky that it was still being shown in GSC MidValley - the nearest for me to go. IN One Utama , the show was scheduled for 645pm screening ; which i felt very unappropriate.
As how our previous historical movies , Hati Malaya was a failure in box office. So far , they've just managed to collect RM400 K after 3 weeks screening. This has always been the trend for such genre ; where attracting the mass is a huge challenge ; an almost impossible one . Zombi Kampung Pisang grossed more than a million after 2 weeks ! And I guess , most Malaysian movie goers are more interested in seeing Nana Tanjung or Orang Minyak rather than appreciating our past.
The movie was good ; full of facts which makes it cool as we appreciate the historical characters in action. The potrayal of Onn and Tunku was excellent , considering their amateur status. I certainly enjoyed Tunku's laid back personality with his Kedah accent ; and the actor really played him as how we read him in his biographies. Shuhaimi was certainly careful with details ; from Tunku's "boy" serving his favourite roti bakar to H.S. Lees trademark mufflers . A memorable scene from the movie for me was when the UMNO leaders post Dato Onn's resignation , attending Tunku's bbq ; Tunku wearing baju melayu with an apron on as the chief cook !

It had its sentimental value and one could not hide the chills and passion when they shouted Hidup Melayu , Daulat Tuanku and Merdeka !

p/s However , I cannot deny the fact that Maya Karin was sooooooooo attractive in the movie !! hahahahaha

How in the hell did I end up in the Nadal-Gasquet match ?

It was by chance really! After picking up my son from his TASKA i decided to visit a friend of mine who's back from UK for the holidays. His house was very nearby so i dropped in. He did actually called me up through his house phone earlier but I thought it was the TASKA calling me ( not that i was late! ).
And he popped the question ..
" Kau free tak malam ni ? " ohh.. i thought there was some kenduri or some religious function.
"OK kot , wife pun takde ni. dia pergi Induksi," I said.
" Kau nak tengok Nadal tak ? " "What !! Kau ada ticket extra ke ? " "Adalah ! takkan aku nak ajak kau !! " Hahahahahahahaha...

And there I was , In Malawati stadium watching the exhibition game between the two World tennis stars. Nadal was as big as how we see him on TV. ( Azalina certainly got to watch his muscular figure as how she was keen for - as reported by TV3 news the night before ! ) .It was an entertaining match apart from the cheezy emceeing by the none other Mahathir Lokman. Thanks man ! Certainly a good way to celebrate me finishing my exams !

Physio viva

Had my viva today at 12.30 pm , just before lunch time. I was dead hungry while waiting for my turn but at the same time , my heart was pounding wild. Exams are really bad for your heart you know !!
I was in stream B. I had Prof M.James from South Africa , Prof Choy ( UKM ) Prof YKChan (UM) as my examiners.Prof YK was the silent observer and i'm not sure whether did i make a fool out of myself in that room today!

1.Prof James broke the ice by asking me to explain the fight or flight mechanism , local blood flow , circulatory regulation etc. Hahaha.. a real "talking through experience" thingy ! I dunno whether it was me or him confused ourselves.
2. He asked about how vaporisers work.. And shit.. Never touched that page before ; so i tried to talk my way but hahaha.. it was so obvious the vacuum in my knowledge of this.
3.Prof Choy then asked me about GFR , Starling forces equation , Why GFR , How does it autoregulate , how to measure GFR and about Renal blood flow.
4. CO2 transport , Haldane effect , buffer why and what which i managed to round it off just before lunch.

PEEEEERRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH.... I was so glad when it was over and Dil called me just in time ; as we then spent the afternoon with Mafiz and Rizuan in redbox..
P/s madah berhelah made my voice dissapear !! ... Ziana Zain wannabe..

Pharmaco viva today

It was at 11 am today ; i was scheduled to be the first of the second batch.
I came at 1030am ; having my heartbeat racing like mad.

I was on table B ; Alex Sia ( Singapore ) Prof Marzida ( UM ) Prof Jaafar(UKM) were my examiners.hmmmm... Sitting in the waiting room was no different as I was getting nuts... "rabbish rahli.sadri... etc" uttered like nobody's business..

went into the room ; OK.... Alex Sia introduced himself and off we go ; with something simple he said.. hahahaha

1. Lets talk about opioids. Show me the Plasma concentration vs time graph of fentanyl..
Then we started talking about effect side , compartments , elimination , comparing with alfentanil and of course remifentanil..
2. What local anaesthetics do you use in practice . and we went on to the properties what makes it different from one another. mode of action ; frequency dependent action , and the stereoisomerism which the way i answered made him a bit uncomfortable !! hahaha
3. Gave me a table with numbers and asking what statistical test would be appropriate.

Prof Marzida was next. Her questions were fairly ok for me to blubber out..
1. Diuretics and mode of action.
2. Desflurane watchouts.
3.Renal toxicity with inhalational agents.
4. Obstetric drugs..

and tiiiiinnngg...
Waahh.. 20 minutes hell was not as fast as how i wanted it to be ! I'm still having palpitations now ..and of course , the reason for me to blog this out as I am just gonig bonkers for my physio viva tomorrow... Urrggghhh...

Dzaeffran's birthday..

I'm in the midst of my exams and it is my boy's 2nd birthday today !!!
Sorry dzaeff , walid can't organize a birthday cake for you because of walid's pressing exam. However , I did bought you a present earlier this week...

And you certainly enjoyed the gift after I had blown out all my lungs for you ( excluding residual volume of course) ... Hahaha..
Happy 2nd birthday yea... :) I'll make it up to you..

Yup.. Here we go..

Been dreading this moment.. since.. i can't remember when.
Its my part 1 tomorrow.
Physio and Pharmaco.
Its not easy to pass.. dunno whether I've done enough.
But hey.. you'll never be ready if you ask me !
Here we goo... Bismillah...

feeling like spraying yourself ?

Or wrong placements..

Lets run away !!

3 days and counting.. dup..dap..dup..dap..

DiGi phone home..

Despite the warning . despite the threat ,
despite the heavy rain , despite the blockage attempt ...
people came , people marched , people were brave.

Vena , Vedi , Vici and Carpe diem became the theme..


I must congratulate the police force for their control of the situation and did not over react. The objective of handing the memorandum to Tuanku was achieved in a bloodless manner. There were few casualties though ( but all 245 released !! ) , but being in a mass of at least 40,000 ( from net sources ) ; it is not significant statistically. Even the 40,000 number is nothing because if you compare the number of the votes gained by the opposition in the 2004 elections against the top 9 fellas in MIC ; it summed up to more than 120,000! Baru 9 Parliamentary.. ( Why MIC lah ? well.. its Deepavali period isn't it ? ) thus , the organizer's target of 100 k was realistic to begin with.
Its the IT era , information is limitless ; compare and contrast reports from both sides. Everybody is free to express their concern and what happened on the 10th of November 2007 showed how the cyberworld and blogs are tools of matter. ( Wait a minute , i thought somebody said it was only for dim wits ?? :) ) Humans are naturally anti-establishment ; we should use that as our strength rather than denying it.

At the end of the day , you wonder who'll benefit the most ?

Susukan kera, anak tersadai
Ayam menang kampung tergadai

cool pic of MAYA TzM.. "ciplak kejaps ekss.."

Symbol of supremacy ?

UMNO Annual assembly is going on and you cannot espace from the keris Panca Warisan controversy. It'll be its third year in running of kissing and waving the keris ; a definite issue maker of its symbolic representation in the eve of General Elections. Things are certainly getting out of control with Uncle Sam issuing a directive to its party members but then retract it few hours later yesterday. Quo Vadis ?

Though , i still view our Gen X and Y will continue congregating the mamak stalls come weekend , in harmony and unity ; observing the race for post-millenium supremacy !!

Manifestation

The exam is next week and I'm on my last few days of sucking up the details of my physio and pharmac. Though at times i do get distracted with facebook , its a good tension releaser ! The exams will be tough and of course i don't think anybody feels they are ready to take it.

This time around , i reckon i am in control of my emotions induced by the stress ; but my body is definitely showing the psycho-somatic effects. I'm getting altered bowel habits , a "certain" past occurance came back, my appetite suppressed ; but the most obvious is the "butterfly malar rashes" on my cheeks ! Takkan SLE ( systemic lupus erythematous )kot ? Is my body manifesting a hidden chronic autoimmune state ? Its more common in females rather than males though.. hmmmm...

Tu fikir kemudianlah. Lets concentrate on the immediate task in hand.

OGKL Aidilfitri open house 2007

10 years ago...

the WTC was still "twinning" majestically..

The blackpool trip was where it all began..

and I wonder who's chained to who after ten years ?? :)

Selamat Pengantin Lama...

Did this myself !! ( proud).Got the fresh flowers from the market this morning.. :)

Its my wedding anniversary today ! Happy Anniversary Ja !!! Muahs..
Gosh , has it already been 6 years ? Time files so fast. What have i achieved in my 6 years of matrimony ? Hmmmm... 1 wife and 2 kids with a decent job. Oklah tu !! hahaha..

Marriage is everybody's dream and the goal is to live happily ever after. It is not easy nor is it hard ; but it is tricky ! It is not about having it perfect as how you imagine it or envision it from the television ; it is how you adapt and improve as you go on.
"Marriage is not about being together and hoping that everything turns out well , marriage is about risk management and facing problems ; solving the crisis together. The more controversies sorted , the higher the success rate of matrimony... "

Eventhough i thought i was ready when i embarked on this impossible mission , i was totally wrong. Perhaps I was somehow pressed into the marriage by my parents at that time. I did not have enough money to begin with being a student. Haniza was already working - but it was "jodoh" and fated!
An almost perfect pre-marital understanding and friendship we had did not translate into a smooth sailing marriage. Having another half to look after and vice-versa was not an easy task. A doctor marrying a doctor was thought to be ideal , but a woman will always be a woman and a man as himself regardless of one's education or social stature. Me and wifey had lots of disagreement regarding lots of things ; things that we overlooked and took for granted during our courtship. Both of us were from different worlds therefore our expectations and life concept were totally opposite. It was not easy to tolerate with each other as both our heads were made of reinforced concrete ( *platinum base ). The understanding was bad and it did not help when we had difficulties in conceiving.
God work in mysterious ways. The stillborn we had ( Myftzal Mikhail) at 28 weeks on our 3rd year of marraige was a blow to both of us. Ironically , it may have been the turning point as we took a seat back and reflected . It somehow changed our perception about life and the lesson of being thankful of what we have. At that time , wifey would have thought her chances of conceiving was zilch after being treated for fertility with dissapointing results.
Then the miracle came ; Dzaeffran was such a beautiful gift . Qaisya came "tumbling" after and unexpectedly ( i hope this will explain why it was poor spacing between them , not that I am "rakus..) and life was never the same again. Alhamdulillah...

Thank you for being my partner and tolerating me . ( Hope you to return this gesture !! )
Thank you for Dzaeffran and Qaisya.
Thank you for believing in us.
Happy Anniversary to us.. Mafeitz and Haniza !!

p/s I'm into the 7th year of marriage.. apasal mcm ada itch ah ? hahaahaha