Wednesday a week tomorrow..

Wow.. time really files. Next Monday i should be in Kubang Kerian and on Wednesday , taking my finals. A really scary thought but something that i will have to face.. whether i like it or not! I've been trying hard to cramp whatever i can in this very short time. My department is still holding great to the tradition of not letting us off early unlike other disciplines.. butthen again , whining about it will not change anything. Well, i will save my comments for that issue later.

I try very hard to focus and defy the temptations to stray.. but then again, i guess being postgraduate student is diffeent. Life goes on.. Responsibilities have to be fulfilled;and I am not whining about it too.. we got to do what we have to do kan? In a way, having the kids around me especially sending and picking them up everyday is a breather. I feel calm looking at them and I must say, source of inspiration and motivation :)

Well.. here goes.. tawakkal to Allah as I've tried my very best..

Looking at yourself

Wifey's busy routine to Selayang as well as her locum work around Shah Alam after office hours had made me closer to the kids. I'm the person who sent all of them early in the morning to Salsabiila and pick them up later. My current fairly light duty which is not as busy as before( as I am preparing for my exams) helped us in a way to manage the well being of the lovely 3 kids. The sense of attachment is stronger as my two younger girls expect me to bathe after dinner. I try to teach Dzaeff to be more independent nowadays.

Dzaeffran is certainly growing up fast and I'm always left smiling seeing his antics. He is a very loving brother and even at this very tender age, he looks after his sisters well. Both of the younger ones enjoyed his presence for their fun( I don't really know what are they laughing about) daily games! However, Dzaeff has his sleazy ways whic i reckon if not being nurtured from now can be very very dangerous! Its a skill which I am not surprised to see him have but it makes me more cautious and expect the unexpected!
Qaisya is the difficult one among the three.. second child syndrome is very prominent in her daily actions! She has her mood swings and at times difficult to please. we are not hapy with her negative attitude at times but as sh grows up we hope to instill more positive thoughts in her.
Qystiena.. hahaha she's like dzaeff when he was younger but she fits her physical side.. tough! She knows what she wants and no pushover even as a 1 year old! She managed to make both dzaeff and qaisya cry the other day to my amazement.. hahaha sibling rivalry..

A short break..

Forgive me for me lack of updates.. its the exams you see.. i mean its not till May but I am having a lot of thought blocks for blog! hahahaha seriously, nak tulis apa pun tak tau sebenarnya. I am very anxious.. but it does not really manifest on the things that i do everyday. However , I've since had vertigo and URTI susah nak elok.. my face flare macam SLE butterflies !! Psychosomatic wifey said.. hahahaha I am having burn outs as well in my running! Its part of this whole package:)
I'm sure I'll be an inconsistent blogger at the moment.. Only when I feel the need to jot down on this page, I would! Seriously.. the stress is killing me! Its not easy to pass out as a specialist!!