White rose

white rose.. 

Condolonces to our honourable head of the class *forever* , Ms Nurleena Hassan ( ramblingsofamute.blogspot.com ) for the passing of her beloved mother yesterday . Alfatihah..

The Kamcheng gang has lots of memories with Auntie Rogayah. A very friendly figure who's always the person you want to talk and confide to. In a way , she knew a lot about the gang's life ; what we did during school days and after. She knew about the friendship , relationship , betrayal etc.. and had always been there for us when we needed her. We;d always loiter in her home , sometimes without the presence of Nurleena herself . She'd always be keen and interested to update us with the latest updates and gossips in the TTDI circle.

Next raya will not be the same without her ; as every year we would go and visit the family without fail . ( we do go there occasionally then however.. heks.. ) She would always enjoy our presence as how we were too with her warm welcome. I will definitely miss her special LAMB MEAL .. only available on the first day of raya.

When she was diagnosed with Mets to the lungs from an unknown primary about a year ago , we all went like huh... how come ? There was never the time we would imagine her to be sick ; and she bravely tried her might to fight it.Her chemotherapy and regular pleural tap certainly drained her a lot. We did try to visit her from time to time.. but each time her condition worsened and it was quite disturbing to see her in such condition.

I received an SMS yesterday evening ; noting that she was in University hospital and looking bad. We rushed to the hospital at about 6.30 pm , Menara Utama , 1217 ; We first met Nurleena's dad ; he tried to smile on our arrival but we knew he was speechless. Honestly , when i saw Auntie , i could barely recognize her. Gone were the thin , youthful and cheerful looking mum , and in front of us.. her physique being cushingoid due to her high dose of steriods , very ill looking and really breathless. her Spo2 was hovering 86 - 89% on a modified BIPAP . Azad and Dil was there too.. All of us numbed and gone were our evil-like laughter.

" I dah puas nangis dah..kering air mata... " said Nurleena , i did try to crack few jokes as how i'd always do. " Thanks for cheering me up... "

I could see sadness and desperation in her eyes. The agony of losing a lovely mother was too painful to accept. I was lost for words too as deep in my heart , seeing Auntie in that condition ; she was deteriorating. told Nurleena about things to expect especially in the hospital when a patient collapses. We left her about half an hour later.. she was more keen to be beside her mum.. especially during this hour of need..

Early this morning..about 1.20 am , wifey received the sms.. Auntie Rogayah had peacefully passed away. Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rajiun...

To Nurleena and family , stay strong as this is allah's test for u guys..
Auntie Rogayah.. we will miss you.. and your non-presence will be so much felt..

Alfatihah...