Alfatihah.. 1 year passing of Mutee

 

 "Eaylalle.." we were just strolling and passed Covent Garden when I received an unexpected call.

 

"Yes Meng.. tiba2 call ni? nak cakap Man U kalah ke?" Liverpool just won their match against Man U!

 

"Bodoh la.. bodoh la... "

 

"Kenapa Meng?"

 

"Muti meninggal... "

 

"Ha?????!!!"

 

Mutee my younger brother passed away last year early September. I was not around in Malaysia as we just arrived in London the ay before. Mutee even sent us (specifically Qayyum) to the airport and I never thought that was the last time I would see him. It was such a shock but that moment of grief did bite me inside as I was unable to be there for the funeral.  

We had always been 5 and grew up together. We was my younger brother and perhaps the darling of my father. He was always rebellious and tend to choose that way to potray his feelings. In our family circle, his stories are legendary haha like for one, he ran away after sitting on the dentist chair and my mother had to go and look for him! Or the time during a school camping trip when he ran away and me ( with Azad, fiqar and ikmal the facilitators) had to go and find him! MAcam-macam lah.. His antiques certainly would test one's patience.

We grew apart unfortunately as he and my other siblings followed my mum to UK for her PHD when i was 16. This also explains why in a way I am not very close with my siblings as the four of them grew up together more than being with me. Since then I have always been away hence the bond may not be as strong as it should be. I do know that my siblings do look up to me with all my achievements but being at my age now, I do wish I was closer to them in the most important growing up years. 

Mutee has a very creative mind and this was exhibited since young. He was brilliant and his ideas were always outside the box. He was good at building things with LASI when we played with our neighbours back then.Later in life he was always known as the artist. There were a lot of his decisions which I did not agree then even though my parents would follow his wish. I was young then and perhaps did not understand his dynamics. I had a big disagreement with my parents because of him and perhaps that was why I was not always informed and being put out of the picture when it comes to him. Mutee was special and very sensitive at the same time. We do get on well when we meet up now and then. 

 

He was always secretive on what he was doing. He was in fact away for the past few years and I hardly see him. It was a surprise when 2 weeks before Qayyum left for UK, he came back during the doa selamat for Qayyum. I was glad and relieved to see him but little did I know that last 2 weeks he was with my parents would be his last moments with them. I knew he was a bit unwell but never thought that he would leave us so soon as he did.

What I am glad was, he passed away in the arms of my mother. It was a good end. Allah planned it that way and I could not have prayed for a better ending of how it went. It was very sad for his kids and they were reunited and very happy with their papa being with them again.  

All I can do now is to pray for him and that he be rewarded with Jannah. He passed away 2 days before he turned 43 last year. Alfatihah Mutee. 😥