Saturday, December 25, 2010

Indo Gede(Pangrango)-Tangkuban Parahu

This Indonesia trip was planned since early this year. This was my first ever climbing trip out of Malaysia. Being fat and unfit, i dunno whether agreeing to go for this trip was a wise one. However, i missed nature and yearning to go back and enjoy the atmosphere and to find time in this last 6 months was not easy.
KLIA walk
warning from Bung Karno

We managed to fly with KLM and it was my first time on a 777-300. My trip to Salzburg earlier was on the 200 model and all of us were very excited to board the plane! And the fascilities.. hahaha imagine, most of our past trips were on Air Asia. Therefore, being on board a world class plane was an experience!
We arrived in Jakarta at about 830pm and we had our supir waiting for us. Amir( the group leader) specifically booked a minivan for the 10 strong entourage. All of the team members were senior otai2 maut punya hahaha I only hope at that time not to be the one left behind and limiting the group's progress forward!
We arrived at Freddy's homestay in Cibodas very late; in the early hours of the morning. He was accommodating receiving us and his actions certainly reminded me of Ketut(the guy from Eat.Love,Pray) hahaha I even asked if it was him !!
We woke early the next morning as everybody was eager to start off climbing! Usually December is not a very good month for climb as the wind (badai) and rain will endanger us. I guess we were trying our luck perhaps that we maybe lucky to enjoy both Gede and Pangrango. After getting te guide to confirm the trip, the 10 of us on daypack were ready to go. However, me and Hafiz were quite sceptical about not having this trip to be OT( as following the OGKL tradition) that we decided to bring extra things in case we had to sleep overnight in the jungle!
The trek started off smoothly. It was a pathway made of rocks. Gede was a volcano and the last eruption was during Independence Day and ever since, seemed to be quiet. Who knows, in years to come it will act like Merapi!
and pose..
We were very casual in the beginning. stopping and taking pictures like tourists unnecesarily without knowing what was ahead of us! haahha the 12 to 4km marker on the start reminded me of Tambuyokon.. hhaha bukan senang maaa...
As the trek got steeper, the weather worsens. rain began to drop and reduced our group movement speed. I realized the trek was a bit different because it was more of rocks and sand as compared to the Malaysian jungle which forces us to climb on roots and soft soil.The trek got interesting when we reached Panca Weleuh where it was literally boiling hot waterfall! And to cross it ala Tomb Raider was really cool! I guess, because it was warm as well it became the highlight of the trek.
We arrived in Kandang Badak quite late as it was pass 2pm.. The weather was getting worse as we could feel the hale rushing the raindrops!It became cold to stay still at one place and we proceeded to summit Gede. It was a torturing steep climb in wet conditions. Having to negotiate our way through a vertical rocks with rope in the wet can be scary! We were not fast at all and reached the Gede summit at about 530 pm! The journey to the summit was horrendous! The rain was blown away by massive wind speed where i myself with my weight felt as if it was trying to blow me away! It was so cold up there and of course there was no view! The weather was simply terrible for us to proceed and it was a worry as well to walk down!
Sampai di puncak yea!!!
Of course we were frustrated when we reached Kandang Badak, we were told by the Guides that they were not keen to bring us to the twin peak. The whole group felt demoralised but I guess safety comes first. As the pepatah goes.. Takkan lari Gunung dikejar!
Group pic
We arrived at Freddys at about3am in the morning! Our legs were sore as we were threading through a journey of stones non stop. The pain really got to us on our way down that we had to stop for a few times. Upon arrival everybody with their trekking atire just went collapse!
Therefore, the next day we travelled by our minivan to Bandung and straight up to Tangkuban Parahu. Itwas nice to really see a "live" volcano crater! The whole group enjoyed it very much!
Masya Allah

some shopping done..
We had to go back early on Sunday as we did not want to risk the traffic jam in Jakarta. It was Indo vs Philippines game in the evening and the whole road to Jakarta was totally stuffed! We were lucky to be in time and alhamdulillah ,back home .. tired but happy.. :)

Friday, December 24, 2010

Short weekend trip to Bagan Lalang

We were busy that week, I was oncall non stop and wifey was doing her locum here and there; we were not able to follow Yo for his engagement in Kuching.Both Qayyum and Qaisya followed my MIL with the rest of the family members. It was a lone weekend and we suddenly got the idea.. why not go and relax somewhere? Near but not far and nice?
So we decided for Golden Palm Tree resort in Sepang Gold Coast. It was a purely internet search and booking. we had no idea how nice itwould be and the special weekend offer was reasonable. And so we went! Ofcourse, the way to go there can be a bit dodgy as you're not too sure your way there.
walking to the pool
But upon arrival, wow... not bad the ambience! loved the area... loved the room.. the sea water.. hmmm.. standard la selat melaka.. hahaha but overall... puas hati! Marissa was so excited as she was alone and had all the attention! We managed to have dinner by the seaside with excellent choice of seafood.. though i regretted for not ordering the crab!
marissa enjoying her pool day!
best woo gambar..
myspace pose..


Wow.. my last entry was in November. Such a long time before I can sit down like now to write something on my blog. The blog-neglect syndrome is bad in 2010. I reckon my resolution for 2011 would be to reactivate my passion to write and blog again! It is definitely an outlet for venting, realizing, imagining ie a personal diary of things done.
Of course, my hectic schedule would be the thing to blame ; it was extraordinary one month. I've been involved with a lot of work-related stuff that I lost the zest to blog. Taking care of the wonderful 3 kids is another major factor; spending time with them is priceless! I've been travelling around the country and abroad in this time. I guess the life event that will be happening really soon which is this weekend, moving out from our Park residence home. Imagine, I did not even have the time to inform my neighbours regarding this decision!
I'll try to find time to write about my Sungai Petani workshop, Indonesia Gunung gede trip and the leadership short course by AKEPT in due time.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Sports day n birthday

Once you have children, whatever they do especially in the early years matters so much and takes priority. Nothing they do is not insignificant and you live to witness this moment : to enjoy and savour it as its always them who makes everything that you do worth it.
It was again Salsabiila Sports Day and both Qayyum and Qaisya are involved. I'm pretty confident about Qayyum especially after his surprise last year but with Qaisya, we're always sceptical whether she can perform when asked to.
Qaisya was involved in an event where she was supposed to start the race. However as soon as the whistle was blown, she freaked out!! hahaha she just went beserk and cried! hahaha we thought so this would happen.. i tried to coax her to try, and with force she was pushed on the small tricycle but of course, she did it in her upmost disgust! hahaha.. i managed to video the went beserk moment.. classic!
Qayyum did well in his events and we are very proud of them..
Later in the afternoon, we celebrated Dzaeff's 5th birthday at home.. small scale but it was a surprise to him! I'm sure he will remember this ultra-birthday indefinitely! :)

Monday, November 01, 2010

new wear

I bought few scrub caps online via sukascrubs -I believe they are based in UKM because i know one of the models! The caps looked cool and I'm sure if their marketing is good: bule jadi kaya wooo. Well, baru je order then nanti tunggulah delivery and I'll model it out for you!
p/s only for the eccentric narcicists.. hahaha kalau tak yg disposable tu dah cukup dah sebenarnya..

Forgotten but remembered

I managed to catch P Ramlee's bio profile on History channel Astro 555 last night. I'm a big fan of History channel and to have a Malaysia-related icon life being opened up is a must see for me. I am a big fan of his movies: Hang Tuah made me want to be a hero, Antara Dua Darjat made me realize the reality of class, Ali Baba Bujang Lapok made me laugh from start till the end. His movies are excellent that when we watch it again and again, despite knowingh the storyline as well as the dialogue: i will not move away from the TV.
It was a fresh presentation: featuring interviews with his friends, ex wives as well as his wife (Saloma) who died in agony many years later : unable to accept his death. Nobody really knew especially my generation that he died as a pauper and unappreciated then. He was at his downfall and nobody cared. He became an outcast; trying very hard to repeat his former glory days. It was good for History channel to focus on this so that we know the real story; that at the end of his greatness; he was depressed and forgotten.
I must say I was impressed with Saloma- who really loved him till the end of her life. She was distraught and remained that way. Her love for P Ramlee was so obvious that everybody talked about it - not pretencious nor publicity searching. She was sincere and cared for him in the days when it looked gloomy for P Ramlee. i managed to catch P Ramlee the musical early this year, and it was certainly the element which was emphasized in their scenes together Remy and Sally :) well honestly, i never looked up upon celebrities' relationships as I feel they are always looking for glam & publicity rather than sincere marriage. Whoever would have thought that Remy and Sally's love were real? Being highly educated does not equate to happiness in marriage life isn't it?
Thank you P Ramlee for showing the world Malaysia Boleh then.. and you are the man!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

The big three

I rarely get really obese pregnant mums for caesar.. of course pregnant mothers will always be overweight but to have a normally obese lady becoming pregnant is an upmost challenge! I've done quite a few previously but none matched the one I had the day before.. 150kg mother, primi.. just ate two hours ago and came for her usual antenatal follow up.. they can't detect her fetal heart rate.. the scan did not look good so : decision for LSCS..
when she arrived in OT.. hmmm... wow.. airway can be real bad if one opts for GA and the option is for regional.. i don't see any other way to ensure both mother and baby safety... "fat chance" hey? hahaha
you cant feel anything behind there.. totally fat up and below... so how ah? well..i took the longest needle i can find and the only way to do it was the "ada rasa karen tak?" method.. it was not easy nevertheless but alhamdulillah.. i got it.. and LSCS with baby was well.. :)
I was in cardiac OT again.. and we were doing a fairly simple "pericardial stripping" case. This unfortunate gentleman had gut TB few months back and had since went into cardiac failure symptoms. The cardiologists thought it would benefit him to have the fibrosed pericardium to be peeled off so that the heart can contract better and perhaps improve his failure symptoms. He was otherwise healthy before that bout of infection.
It was a simple sternotomy with the heart visualised directly. it looked dirty and very typical of infection like lesion around the heart. of course, with such fibrosis you can never predict the friability.. and yup, to make the story interesting the right atrium pun TER-BOCOR!! waaa... major resus done as the cardiac output was literally off the drain! it was impossible to close the defect immediately and the heart stopped beating almost immediately. The trainee cardiac surgeon had to commence the direct cardiac massage with the main surgeon busy trying very fast to establish a fem-fem bypass to the CPB machine.. And of course, the anaesthetists all working overtime as manual "Level-1": pumping as much blood and volume into the circulation to maintain it before one can define death phsilogically! We could lose the guy anytime.. he was at the verge of death due to no more blood in his circulation!
We managed to put him on bypass and that geve the surgeon the time to repair what was damaged.. but it was not an easy task.. They did not close the chest as the possibility for reopening the chest was there! The success for the episode was; we were able to get him of the bypass machine... and such release. Till date he is still in CICU and I'm not sure if he can make it..
Adrenaline rush on the go? only crazy people would yearn for a career like this... hahaha so am I in that category? haha

Monday, October 25, 2010

Books i bought

In the last few months, I've been buying books - actual books which is not related to medicine or aanesthesia. I dunno why i was compelled to do so..but since its with income tax relief thingy.. why not fill in my library? And for my birthday yesterday.. i bought another 2 books which i hope i will be able to read and the earlier books, macam sketches and there.. haha
I've always had this thingy about NLP.. i don't really know what it is and i cant be bothered to go for the course. one because it is expensive. two.. i don't have the time. Therefore the opportunity to read and teach yourself was something i thought was a good thing to do.. but till now.. still reading it.. hahah
I bought this after watching the theatre. I'm always a history buff therefore history recollections like this is a must to have! I've yet to browse and read it thoroughly but I've managed to flick through the historical official papers.. I collect Malaysia history books tau!
I bought this book as a tribute to my idol..Prof Emeritus Alex Delilkan. I should have taken the autographed paperback during last year's Anaesthesia day but never got to do that.. so i recently bought this mainly as my Malaysian reference ..for my review article that he reviewed!
Yup... This is what i got for my 34th birthday! the 8th habit.. I didn't read the 7 habits and now i go straight into the 8th habit. Typical of me eih.. hahaha ilmu sesat kang..
I thought this was interesting.. but wifey went WTH???? hahahaha

Saturday, October 23, 2010

CVL workshop 23/10

I must thank Dr Lim for inviting me to be part of the faculty in organizing the CVC workshop in Sungai Buloh Hospital. It was an opportunity I would instantly take up as I've always enjoyed to organize and present. Talking about our bread and butter, putting in central catheters is not something difficult to do and as ever to share with the young ones.
The day started with lectures and my lecture was about CVC insertion via landmark technique. And as always, I could not resist the temptation to present it my way.. with pictures and graphic which anybody would enjoy. Mr Reindhart from Bbraun Germany complimented my presentation where he thought the germans themselves would be smiling when looking at my slides!
Suraya,Tie,Shymala and Suzana did their bit and the excellent team about this team was we all did our presentation on time! e had loads of extra time before the afternon session which was about demo using ultrasound and the insertion of CVC via models. I had fun with the GE phantom models to play with.. and i guess everybody should have this to practice with especially for those keen on the ultrasound guided regional anaesthesia.

Later in the afternoon, me & Tie demonstrated on how to insert CV line for ICU patients. My patient looked Ok but somehow i could not thread the guidewire in!! hahaha really went haywire not according to plan! I was sweating all over for the inability to do it in 5 minutes.. hahahaha it had to be me isn't it? but in the end, after the failure of Right subclavian and then to left internal jugular( which surprisingly under u's guidane totally collapsed!!) and to the left subclavian which maybe in retrospective i should have attempted the first time.. hahahaha

3 and 4 does not make 7..

Wow.. I am really neglecting my blog! Look at my last post which was last month! I guess its the thought block period and somehow i could not get myself to sit down and write.. like i previously did,how i used to... hmmm... need to get back the blogging spirit somehow..
Im 34 today.. Happy birthday to me.. hahaha Honestly, i cant believe I am at this age.. progressing towards 4-o which is not that far away. I am getting older.. and older.. and maaannn... betul2 rasa cam midlife crisis!
I am currently fitting in well with my Sungai Buloh environment, started doing OT and enjoying every bit. I must thank Dr Lim for his generosity and courtesy to take us to be part of the KKM family. I enjoy working my new colleagues here who I've met previously, either in HKL and UM.. an excellent working group! Of course, Jeya "Chief" is my highlight as everyday is a good day for us .. hahaha why la chief???!!!!
The challenge as a specialist now is to train my young ones to be future anaesthetists! Its totally different from my previous 4 years in UM..where most of the MOs on my side and others are experienced enough to handle ourselves.
UiTM with our "mega-super" plan is progressing under KY. And being a part of it is a challenge by itself. To set up my own anaesthesia department with my limited experience can be daunting but if i don't do it..then who will?It is ironically something that i enjoy and dont mind doing because charting my own future will be my own responsibility. I am glad that I'm slowly going into cardiac anaesthesia with Mondays and Tuesdays being in Um with Prof Wang and Prof Marzi.
to 34 and infinity.. and beyond... :)

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Celebrating raya MDQ style..

Alhamdulillah, i had a comfortable raya leave this year. In fact, as far as i can remember maybe the longest ever!(not being oncall after 1 week of raya!!) For the first time, I could celebrate Raya slowly but surely; but hey..with three kids it is never easy!
*credit to pelangibonda for pics..
This year's raya was memorable because of my 3 kids. They are bigger now so they can appreciate the joys of raya. To see them enjoying themselves is a big plus for me & wifey. Dzaeff really enjoyed going from one house to another; as he himself can explore the house! hahaha Every house that we go to in Muar, he went straight to the kitchen and as how he is, helped himself for water or food etc.. hahaha and of course, Qaisya will tag along with his brother.. and of course, the lovable Falx( the little cute fox beanie..)
Qystiena herself is slowly showing her own personality. She can be fiesty at times, opiniated and nobody can mess with her. Dzaeff and Qaisya lost their battles to her due to her strong personality! She now enjoys dressing up, even asking for baju kurung to be worn to sleep! She definitely likes her raya shoes, elegant and nice :) Seeing their eyes glimmering is a bonus and that makes this year's raya more special.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Boxing Piala Malaysia 2010

I had the great opportunity to experience something new before ramadhan. I am involved via Pak Ya from last year to be part of the Malaysian Boxing Federation but never got to be active because of exam year. However, when i received the letter of invitation to be a ring physician this year.. hmmm... why not? Of course, i had no whatsoever training or information on how to be a ring physician, as to the Malaysia spirit of Malaysia Bole.. so.. hantam sajalah!! hahahaha
my hotseat..
had a go in commentating? haha
To my surprise when I arrived on the first day of job in Keramat MSN, i did ask whats the plan for medical cover. and the reply was.. mmm.. you lah.. ahaha and literally me alone! I was quite shocked in the beginning as this is the national championship and not a district level kind of a tournament! Shakti ( thanx foryour help bro..) who I recruited to help me on the first day was very unhappy with the setup. He as how his usual self showed his opinion strongly and tried to arrange something with MSN. Of course, last minute jobs will never be well done.
the distinguished R&J
with Mr Hisham.. cool bro!
my view..
with Fairuz.. Laos 2009 Sea Games gold medallist..
There I was for 1 week, covering as the ring physician by the ringside. Guidance by Mr Hisham, the senior International AIBA ring referee was excellent as I sat down and learnt what technical amateur boxing is all about. It is kind of ironic that this is a very safe sport I must say! Strict guidelines on boxer's safety is practiced and with that objective in mind, it was not difficult. I had to make certain decisions to disqualify boxers.. but its a must to ensure that the boxer can continue to box! I had my moments of glory too as the whole tournament was shown live on TV via Astro Arena 801. hahahaha a really godd experience i must say and i cannot imagine how one cannot be an expert after sitting through more than 100 bouts!! hahaha
Thank you everybody !! Hidup tinju Malaysia!!

Aidilfitri 2010

Salam Aidilfitri to all!
My family pics in our different coloured themes this year!!

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

Round 1 - retreat

We had our first meeting with the management committee yesterday. The Daycare MIS working group worked hard to prepare our working paper in realising the surgical services in CTC Sg Buloh. Our team is very young; but not without vibrant energy and push. Of course, Initially we were told that they will only meet us next month. Hashim got a friendly phone call from the Secretary, telling us to prepare for the meet in the afternoon.! Of course, we were not ready as we thought we had time to strengthen our presentation.
So there we were, managed to get most of the team members to sit in that room. We were waiting for 2 hours when I decided to continue and not postpone my teaching with the orthopods students. And the brave 4 musketeers went in the room quarter to five.
The good news: there was no NO-NOs from Dato'.
The bad news: unlikely for daycare surgery to start in November. They want a more comprehensive planning and lots of details in the proposal.

Obviously our working paper was based on our own limitations and abilities. I am a practical person and I model my management based on what works. I know the management team has their own mega plans to do but sometimes it may not be feasible. Im not being pessimistic or non committal but our situation is very different at the moment. We were not involved in the earlier planning stage and here we are thrown in the middle of it. Some things were planned then but who i really don't know. And for what we have at the moment, we should use it to the max rather then waiting for it to be another white elephant.(which is a common sight and practice in Malaysia) I believe on doing things that work and with an objective in mind to expand as we go. Managing OT is not easy but i know that certain things do and can work in a short time.
Never mind, we will be back in the board meeting room with a band and renewed enthusiasm.

Friday, September 03, 2010

Unfortunates vs Deservability

model view of Sungai Buloh Hospital complex

Working in a centre which boasts on Neurotrauma specialty brings a mixed reaction to an Intensivist. The majority of the patients are young; often involved in a motor vehicle accident which may impair the future of their lives. Emotional prejudice to the mat rempits maybe there amongst the carers ( doctors and nurses). "You deserve it" may cross our minds indefinitely but it never became a determinant factor of continued quality care to "fix" the patient up so that they can wake up from their coma.
Eventhen, the sight of their family members who came soon after can be very emotional. The grief and anxiety is obvious especially when explaining to them what happened and what was about to happen in deeming consent for anaesthesia and surgery. The sigh of having to sign the form which life may depend on it is a risk which they cannot avoid. The confrontation can be brutal at times, but its never easy to cope with such a stress. It is common to have doctors vs relatives to argue but i guess the role of effective communication is vital to ensure smooth information flow for understanding. Anaesthetists are often caught in middle; but it is a role that we should take to show what we can do for the loved ones.
The unfortunate ones are the "good" people who were unlucky to be involved in such a catastrophy. A religious teacher who just got married during the weekend, a pregnant mother who was on her way back home from work, a 7 year old child who was hit by a passing lorry, a 24 year old who rammed behind a small truck who stopped suddenly because the driver was drunk, a young student pushed aside by mat rempits .. endless unfortunate ones who died despite intervention made certain dark history in certain people's lives.
All this during oncall can be a mental stress which may drain your energy. Coping with the controls in intracranial pressure during cerebral resuscitation can be tricky as there is no straight forward textbook cases on hand. I guess this experience is something i appreciate and perhaps should train to make me wiser in trying to preserve what is left of what may have gone.

p/s tracheostomy contract is on the go.. hahaha not complaining about it at the moment.. :)

Monday, August 30, 2010

Merdeka 6 years later..

Salam Merdeka 2010!! wow.. This blog is still going on strong despite the hiccup for the last few months. I do really hope to continue writing in this medium eventhough tweeter and facebook may seem to be the better in trend at the moment. But then again, whatever i've started i wil persevere and continue and insya Allah.. this blog will go on..till it become one of those published memoirs ( when I become somebody important la.. kan depa suka tengok the early thoughts.. hahaha)

Lets see how much I've progressed ever since my first ever blog in August 2004!!


Merdeka Blues

Yup... 31 August 2004
Still in the excited mood to write this bloggss..
after 6 years.. I am still as ever excited!!
haks..lepas ni nanti sekali sekala lah ade entry.. bila buat macam ni kan , teringat cerita Doogie Howser. kan , he'll write the happenings of his life in his comp journal..
Accomplished that.. except thati don't have my own tv show yet..
I'm off today.. not on-call.. therefore had been on the bed for the whole day.. heks.. giller malas..
the paradox is i will be taking my MRCPCH PArt 1 exams next wednesday..
PAeds??? what was i thinking then.. haha

and what am i doing today ? not studying.. perrggh..
hahaha.. a common complaint most of the time intra-Masters..

memang gile ah.. dunno why i made the decision to take the exams during housemanship..
maybe i felt that i am suppose to fast forward myself as i am definitely 2-3 years back to my old colleagues..
I feel like i wanna catch on them.. tu la pasal.. i am 27 now.. and still just at the tip of my housejob.. tak lama lagi baru je nak jadi MO. Tengok my wife , she's now doing Masters and in 4 years time insya-allah , she's a Specialist.. hmm.. where will i be then ?
Alhamdulillah.. I am where I am now. Totally did not plan my pathway as an anaesthetist and alhamdulillah after 6 years, I've achieved what i never thought i could do. Congrats to wifey too for her achievement..

Anyway , while i;m still in the mood might as well just key in my thoughts for the day..
Still not out of the euphoria and adrenaline rush from the talk i gave in Kolej Matrikulasi Johor on Saturday.. never thought that i was able to catch their attention for 2 hours.. well , i suppose i have the charisma in me.. hmm.. have to strategize to realize this potential..

And YES... public speaking is a passion of mine and i enjoy doing it.. I enjoy teaching my students as well and I guess, I've found my niche with UiTM at the moment..

Ok.. i think thats all for today.. need to take my shower and pray.. pray to PASS MY EXAMS !!!! haks..
Now.. the exam of life which will go on. until the end..
August 2010