Friday, December 31, 2004

Kamcheng 3 coming

Dil , myself , Mafiz , Fiqar and Azad glancing through our memories... Megat came later

The gang met up yesterday. From 9 pm to 2 in the morning !! It had been a while since we last meet up and enjoyed ourselves together. The MMBUUAAHH laughter is the trademark. hahahahaha we were loud i can tell you.

The night start out at ikmal's place. Dunno what got into his head to orgasmise.. eh silap.. heks.. to organize a yassin recital session. We actually did that!! i suppose the tsunami must have some kind of effect on mal.. heks..

Then , we proceeded to looking through the old pics.. 10 years back.. my god.. WE WERE SO THIN BRO !! hahahahaha.. can't imagine really seeing myself so dark , as how AZAD put it.. MACAM KELING !!!! hahahahah

As everybody was a bit hungry , we went to MOHsin the original ( belakang MOFAZ ) dah lah bising , we ate like the mentekedarah again !!! 6 rounds of tandoori , everybody with their Nan and DIl with his 2 apams and 1 telur !!! we ate and laughed the whole night , in the end , the so called discussion bout the plan next weekend was about 15 minutes , the rest... catching up and LAAAUUGHH.. LAUGHHH.. LAUGGHHHH...

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

VIVA MALAYSIA !!!!! Mas 2 - Indon 1

Khalid Jamlus , the chief striker.. our new "Zainal Abidin".. though lembab but the hope is always there...

Who would have thought , our team could actually pull an upset in enemy's territory ? I am so proud of Malaysia with their handsome win of 2-1 in Indonesia's soil. Who would have thought the likes of us , to win in such a grand way?? Scoring against a team who's had clean sheet in the group matches ???

Honestly , eventhough i am a keen supporter but i did not expect this result. I can say that we were lucky to win the game. Those who watched the game last night might have thought that the onslaught was coming having Indon scoring in the 6th minute. Such frustration to see our boys conceding an early goal due to a STUPID mistake by the centreback !!

Somehow , our team had a good BOMOH. Kurniawan missed 2 absolute goal chances. Then , out of nowhere Liew Kit Kong scored a fantastic flying header after the indon defender slipped. His second goal was comical - very takraw should you say !!! In the 2nd half there was this one situation when Firman just needed to tap 5 meters from the absolute OPEN GOAL MOUTH and he rocketed the ball away ?????? !!!!!
But then what the heck , it is not always that Malaysia have such luck !!!!! And at the end of the day , the results that counts not the way you play !!

C'MON FELLAS !!! LETS GO IN FULL FORCE AND SUPPORT OUR TEAM IN THE 2ND LEG ON HEW YEARS DAY !!! Bule balik indon la indon !!!!! hahahahahahaha

Tsu.. who ??? Boxing Day to remember...

The word tsunami is actually quite sexy to me hehehehe .It sounds like some japanese girl's name. But boy , the destruction it can cause is massive.

Malaysia was affected by this penomenon during the weekend. Very rare indeed , i believe it is the first ever major natural disaster that affected the whole country. The last count i heard - 51 of our countrymen died , My condolonces to their families. Penang , Langkawi , Perlis and Kedah was badly hit by this unsuspected disaster.It was obvious in the amateur video shot caught by one of our tourist in penang , everyone was sort of just looking and feeling relaxed ABOUT IT till the biggie came and swept them off...

the scene from Tanjung Tokong road , Penang..the aftermath

Where was I when it happened ? Amazingly being on the 4th floor of HKL , we didn't feel a thing at that 9am. I was doing rounds with Wan in CCU. Wan received an sms telling about the quake. I laughed at Wan and told him that what a cheap line for a girl to woo him. I did not realize about this phenomenon until i met my parents in TTDI at night when I actually saw the news.

In retrospective , these phenomenons are manifestation of god's greatness. Imagine , wiping off places like Phuket .. just like that within minutes.Repentance and fear of god should be more obvious after these major disasters.
My wife was asking me , why am i so relaxed about it and not like sort of afraid as these manifestations are signs of the nearing of kiamat ?? haks.. Well , its just me.. Quay sera..sera..

Thursday, December 23, 2004

Christmas memories..

Read something on the net / paper regarding how the ENGLISH considering christmas as just another holiday instead of a religious obligation. Guess what, it reminded me of my time there about 10 years back. wow.. that long huh.. :)

Come christmas, it will always be remembered as special times.Everybody's aura will be cheerful despite the awful weather. TV programmes were excellent. The TV guide became the "bible" from the 24th till New Year. Central town will be at a standstill. We will wait for the stores to open up post Boxing day - Christmas sale !! and i will be going aorund town looking for the best bargain for footie jerseys..

Honestly , tiba-tiba cam rindu lak. Just bought the "non" original version of Robbie Williams greatest hits for rm7 in UPTOWN.. and the songs played reminded me of my time there. Shrewsbury.. Leicester.. Manchester.. London... Wow.. the memories suddenly flashed in front of my eyes.

Indeed my 4 years overseas was sweet. Somehow i nearly almost forgot how the things that i had to go through when i was there made me wiser , composed and fatter !!!! hahahahaha . It was about starting life , living up to expectations and accepting fate. I've never regretted anything from my life there.Everything was wonderful and pleasant !!!

Well , hopefully one day i will get my chance again to stand along the corridor of my boarding house - Ingram's Hall in Shrewsbury. passing through the cricket / rugby / footie pitch to the school building and serenading by River Severn watching the boat race in summer. As well as to arrive in Picaddilly station manchester - and rush downtown to Arndale centre ; taking a bite of the famous corn ; tuna and mayonaise.. and then take the bus along university road to Rusholme , eating out my favourite Kebab with mango chadni *smile*

Wow.. such beautiful memories.. remains eternal...

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

New year 2005 and Kam - Cheng

Mal came over to the ward today. He was driving through town and somehow something triggered him to call me. hehehehehe He was in P2 today and i suppose it must have been one hell of an experience seeing the havoc helter skelter 3rd class male ward !!

Anyway , we went for dinner after i've done ( about 11 pm ) and he gave this one interesting idea. He was planning for a Kam-cheng reunion in PD / any place suitable in january. It will be at the same time 2 of our founding member , Azad and Mafiz's birthday !! the plan is for a weekend getawat together - renting a banglo and organize a bbq and sleep over .. Interesting isn't it ???

Malam Kam Cheng was initiated in 1991 - it was just after our SRP. It was basically a bbq party for the guys. It was held at twin Megat's place. Members of ist kam cheng was azad , mafiz , juwie , fiqaR , mal , megats , sharil-chip , lan-tipah and me. Guest of honour was Ustaz Ahmad and Cikgu Azhar.It was a memorable nite .. NO GIRLS.. but we managed to enjoy ourselves. It was self organized and kewl party !!!!

Malam Kam Cheng 2 was held at Mafiz's place in 1997. It was actually more to post form 5 SMTTDI reunion. Few of the original kam cheng members were not present as they were in their respective unis.. eg Azad was in UUM then , we actually did an IRC session , Mal was in Australia , Megat Edrus too.. and girls were invited to this at this time.

Well , kewl plan.. hopefully it will be materialised .. it'll be really..really kewl.. *smile*

Friday, December 17, 2004

Back to life.. back to reality..

Waaahh .. time flies very fast. Today was my first day back at work after four days resting . Wished that i can prolong my holidays. Didn't feel like going to work this morning.

I am currently posted in CCU. ( Cardiac/coronary care unit ) which is the ICU for patients having heart attack . Not that many patients - maximum 10 as they are the ones that needs to be monitored closely. remember Tun Zahir ? he passed away here recently. Anyway , i learnt a lot today even though it was my first day here. Work is less hectic but the amount of knowledge and experience that one needs is vast before one wants to manage the CCU.

Good 1st day even though it was a bit jonah having all beds occupied. Nobody died on me today so that's a good sign. There were few potentials but will have to see tomorrow morning whether my predictions were true.

I believe , being here in CCU is a stepping stone towards Anaesthesia. Managing CCU is very similar to managing ICU. I managed to put in an arterial line today which was a first for me. Quite proud of that actually. hehehehehe.. The nurses here are very experienced and i believe i will learn a lot from them during my short stint here.

Thursday, December 16, 2004 16 Dec 2004 / Malaysiakini 17 Dec 2004

Ok. my article is out on and malaysiakini. Didn't get through utusan / bharian because on the same sitting there was this other article which was better than mine. I would agree with the editor to publish his article as it was more well researched.

Anyway , jadikla kan ade gak org publish my article. to view :

Kalau2 nak tengok my previous articles on paper / net do browse through
tapi yang ni kena jadik member dulu la. I cant change the setting for all my files to be publicly viewed.

ok cheerios.

Movie reviews...

Since working in HKL , i've seldom watch movies. I used to be a movie bum, watching everything new in town and from UPTOWN.. hek..hek. I used to know and i can give you ratings for which movies to watch and which movie to get away from !! Even now , i do try to catch up - but my medical life is so occupying that i decide to rest and sleep whenever i;m not in the hospital. I bought quite a number of vcds/dvds but - somehow have not yet quite finish them till now. the thing is.. whenever i see this haram boys around , i kept buying without really knowing when i can actually watch them !!!

As i am on leave and free from hospital work for the past 3 days , been reviving my late hobby !! haks.. watched Alexander in cinema , Ocean 12 and NAtional Treasure at home. Decided to watch Alex in the cinemas because of it being an epic movie. if i am to watch it at home , chances are i will sleep thru the movie !!

Well , i;ve always adored epic movies especially those potraying history and myths. ( eg TROY early this year ) . I;ve always known that Alex is great , i mean his name is mentioned in the Quran by god. He was mentioned as a great leader and the one who jailed the gogs between 2 hills.
But this movie potrayed him as GAY !! haks.. i suppose Oliver Stone has his own ideas why he wants to potray him that way. Overall , the movie was ok - ish.. could be made better ; but i suppose even in our history books - his adventures has lots of loopholes and i suppose Mr Stone is not willing to fill in all the gaps.

Kewl movie. very hip. but dissapointing. the plot is a bit funny - dunno why the team was obliged to pay back the ones they stole in the first movie. A bit hap-hazard like KILL BILL but the impact is not as good as KILL BILL. Overall the movie was fun but a bit boring at times. One has to see the first movie to understand this sequel.

One REALLY kewl movie !!! New age indiana Jones. A MUST SEE for HISTORY BUFFS. Its kewl how they try to link american independence history with a fantast treasure trail.But be careful esp to my muslim readers , please understand what freemason stands for before watching. The adventure trails were fast and exciting ; and the way the puzzles were made and broke was really kewl. i can foresee them having nicholas cage as the new age indiana jones. :)

And btw - the STAR WARS EPISODE 3 trailer was really kewwll.. haaaakkk.. cant wait , though i was a bit dissapointed with the title.. REVENGE OF THE SITH ??? Macam B-grade porn movie punya title.. hehehehehe

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Malaysia qualified for TIGER CUP Semi finals !!!

Tonight's game was breath taking . It was nice to see the malaysia spirit still alive in our national football team - mediocre they may be but it is our team after all- TEAM MALAYSIA !!!! Please NEVER compare the quality between our national team and the EPL / SPANISH LA LIGA / ITALIAN LE SCUDETA teams .. our national team plays crap football but that should not be the reason NOT TO SUPPORT our TEAM !!! VIVA MALAYSIA !!!!!

It was a good turn-around. We were down by 1-0 at half time . Out of nowhere , Khalid Jamlus ( our current chief striker ) scored 2 important goals. I suppose this is his best contribution so FAR as his previous games were really appauling.Especially against Myanmar when we played really crap stuff. The striker i adore - Akmal Rizal is down injured - recuperating from his surgery.

I am a hardcore Mesia fan , and Tiger cup brings a lot of memories. I was there in KALLANG ROAD STADIUM , SINGAPORE in 1996 when Malaysia lost to THailand 1-0 in the first edition of TIGER CUP. Azman Adnan was our chief striker then but he was a dissapointment in the finals.

It was good to see them win last night , was not in the stadium but i watched it with passion at home. I was JUMPING LIKE MAD when Khalid scored the second goal. What a relief !!! YESSS !!! even though i must say the young THai team displayed a poor game - that should not be the reason to undermine our team... :)

For the semis.. i will definitely make it a point to be present in the stadium. Eventhough our current team in this competition is not the best team assembled , but for the Malaysia Boleh spirit , we must all be in the stadium to cheer !!!

Tuesday, December 14, 2004


wrote this article in response of the current issue by KKM.The last article i wrote was published in malaysiakini early this year.after that , not that active!! Sent this article to utusan , bharian , and malaysiakini. not sure whether it will be published or not but .. you have the pleasure to read it first on my blog !!!


Rakyat Malaysia seharusnya berfikiran terbuka dan
tidak mudah melatah apabila sesuatu idea baru yang
radikal diutarakan.Sikap sebegini masih nyata apabila
ramai pihak membantah cadangan Kementerian Kesihatan
untuk "mencuba" idea mengurangkan pembaziran dengan
pemansuhan sementara pemberian ubat percuma di 2
pusat perubatan Kerajaan.PIhak pembangkang ternyata
bersorak gembira dengan isu baru yang boleh
dimanipulasikan dan mengelirukan rakyat.

Idea ini sebenarnya merupakan salah satu daripada
sumbang saran bagaimana untuk menampung perbelanjaan
kesihatan yang ditanggung kerajaan. KOs perubatan
yang disubsidi kerajaan bertambah setiap tahun
dalam nilai jutaan ringgit. Ramai tidak sedar ,
perkhidmatan perubatan yang diberikan oleh Kementerian
Kesihatan Malaysia merupakan antara yang termurah
di dunia.Kerajaan sebenarnya sudah terlalu lama bermurah
hati namun dengan perkembangan dan kemajuan negara ;
perubahan dinamik diperlukan di mana rakyat tidak
boleh terlalu bergantung kepada kerajaan.Rakyat perlu
lebih bertanggungjawab bukan sahaja kepada diri
sendiri tetapi kepada keperluan negara.

Argumen yang menyatakan bahawa pengguna
perkhidmatan kesihatan itu kebanyakannya dari
golongan miskin di luar bandar sememangnya satu
fakta. Namun , apa yang dilakukan oleh kementerian
sekarang tidak perlu disalah ertikan kerana sudah
pasti golongan yang susah akan dibantu.Itu
bukan persoalannya mengikut dasar kerajaan kita sendiri.
Lihat sahajalah , pusat perubatan percubaan yang
dilakukan - di 2 buah tempat di mana rata-rata penduduknya
berkemampuan dari segi ekonomi . Kajian sebegini penting ,
kerana dengan analisa teliti itulah yang bakal
menjadi fakta untuk tindakan dan susulan seterusnya ;
bukan hanya bercakap berdasarkan omong-omong kosong.
Rentetan cadangan kementerian kesihatan ini sepatutnya
menjadi cabaran kepada universiti-universiti tempatan
untuk melakukan kajian balasan dan menerbitkannya dalam
jurnal-jurnal perubatan di Malaysia dan antaranbangsa.
Apabila ini berlaku maka perbincangan secara intellektual
dapat dilaksanakan dan bukan sekadar mengikut emosi semata-mata.

Kita perlu sedar dan berwaspada , dalam meniti
globalisasi banyak perkara yang perlukan rakyat Malaysia
lebih prihatin.Cara perkhidmatan kesihatan awam yang
diberikan sekarang tidak mampu lagi untuk menampung
sepenuhnya kehendak orang ramai.Jurang perkhidmatan
di antara yang kaya dan yang miskin terlalu berbeza nilainya.
Rakyat perlu lebih bertanggungjawab dalam memastikan
perkhidmatan yang terbaik diberikan kepada semua lapisan
masyarakat. Satu sistem perkhidmatan yang berbentuk insurans
"ala - Malaysia " perlu diwujudkan bagi kepentingan
semua sebenarnya.Sekiranya tidak , maka yang dikejar
tak dapat , yang dikendung berciciran.

Monday, December 13, 2004

Rare moments..

Wahh.. its about 9 am ++ now..

i'm on leave till thursday. NIkmatnya ya allah , bule bangun lambat. hakss.

I really do need this leave. A bit tired of all ward work and patient care. In fact , too busy that I haven't visited Dil yet to celebrate his baby - well , DOG-tors life mahh . hehehehe

anyway , i dont really have any concrete plans this time around. Initially , i did thought of going somewhere as what me n my wife used to do . We go on a retreat in beautiful resorts but this time around she is a bit busy with her studies - mocks and exams coming soon.

PLAN A must go on.that i reckon will be the main agenda this coming 4 days.

Thursday, December 09, 2004

The Stigma

I was in charge of the Infectious Diseases unit for the past 2 days - replacing my colleague who had to take leave because of an accident. It is quite a pity as she had a needle prick injury.. ( she accidentally poked herself the needle she used on a HIV positive patient) and she is 6 months pregnant.

it was a bit of disaster as the risk of her being infected is there however remote it is. Saw her crying in her car when we told her to go home and rest - initially she put up a brave face in front of us but i cannot imagine her anxiety and worry.Lets pray for her and her baby..

In reality - being in the Infectious Disease unit in HKL means you have to take care of those with HIV Positive ( former drug addicts mostly).Being immunosuppressed they are easily infected by the simplest organisms that you and i carry.SImple things like TB is common as well as parasitic brain infection ( eg toxoplasmosis meningoencephalitis )!!! IMagine , me sneezing at them today and they caN DIE tomorrow because of that !!!

If you see them on the street , you would classify them as sampah masyarakat - but here they are in the ward - getting the best and most expensive treatment by the ministry. i may be prejudice but i am not sure whether they are worth the trouble that we take. As physicians it is not for me or you to judge - and in my line of duty - i have to serve regardless. Which becomes such a dilemmna .

My mood for the past 2 days was awful and i feel sorry for those who had to take my temper. hehehehehe.. Today was blood taking day and you can imagine the agony of taking their blood with all the risk at hand ; as well as the difficulty which is YA Allah.. susah giller cause most of their lines are thrombosed and collapsed.

But when one ponders if one is in their shoes ; the treatment that we give is in fact a chance for them to salvage what is left. We can only try - being the messenger and not god on deciding who's good and who's bad. Maybe they were the worst of the worst , but they are humans too and deserve to be treated as such.Typical us ;human beings - we tend to stigmatised and have some sort of resentment against the odd ones . Well, something about life that i learn during this medical posting. but honestly , i dont think i can tahan being in this unit, its just not for me... :) to those who are dedicated in this field , my salute to you guys..

Tribute to Eza'Dil JUniOr !!


DIl ( a close friend of mine ) delivered.. hek.. i mean his wife delivered a beautiful baby girl yesterday morning !!! haks.. ALhamdulillah syukur..
Well , i was on call yesterday so i was not able to visit them in Pantai .. sorry dil !! but i did send my congrats sms to him..

guess what, when i received the msg i was actually doing CPR for one of my patients who just decided to collapse early in the morning !! haks.. tu la ceritanya dil , this i well tell your daughter one day...

"you know.. when you were born .. your dad txt me when i was reviving a patient !!!!"

Congrats again dil from me and my dear wife... will be visiting you soon ..*smile*

p/s wished that myfzal was around to celebrate his future peer..

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Death in Line scare

I was doin my usual clerking of patients in my busy ward ;early mornin of December 4th - when suddenly my sis called me at 4 am.

"Lal.. dapat msg dari kak nazaria tak? "

i asked what msg? " Atuk..masuk hospital kat muar. sakit tenat.. doktor cakap bila-bila masa je boleh meninggal... "
my heart just went sinkin.. and i was not able to concentrate.

At about 8 am , i rushed back to Muar with my wife to see how my grandfather is doing. I presumed that the doctor in Muar had issued a DIL ( Death in LIne) which means that there is a possibility of death during his current stay in the hospital.

My grand-dad , an 81 year old known chronic smoker has a history of multiple admissions to the several hospitals over the years with recurrent pneumonia ( lung infection ).the last admission was in UM 6 weeks back where at that time he presented with left ventricular failure ( aka heart failure )symptoms.

Most of my mum's siblings were there ( xcept her !!! ) and when i saw atuk he was breathless- using his accessory muscles to breath. Upon seeing the records - it was noted that he had a bad acidosis when he came in .Unlce Malik , Auntie HA , Pak Pai , Auntie Non , Auntie Nor were all there and everybody was anxious. PakU and MakCU together with Maklong were the more concerned ; being defensive of their actions taken yesterday in bringin my grandpa to doc's attention.

Hospital MUar now is known as Hospital Pakar Sultanah Fatimah. Its new complex is impressive and the hospital compound is kewl. Dont mind being here one day.. *smile*

To my surprise - i met KAti , an old friend from USM Med School and currently he is the one treating my grandpa . haks !! my dear wife was not too happy with the management , and offered her differential opinion which was certainly more logical !! but we have to respect the specialist's point of view in managing the problem. haks.. i told haniza before that she was more gifted in medicine rather than radiology.. dunno whether she realized this fact or not !!!

Anyway , in one way atuk improved a lot as the day went by. He was able to speak and smile when we last saw him !! the funny thing was , his usual self was evident , when after being given money .. he said , DAPAT DUIT BANYAK2 NI SIHAT LAH NANTI !! and it drew laughter to all !!

It was a tiring day. i suppose the presence of me and my wife lifted some doubt and anxiety regarding his condition. Haniza had a sore throat - having to explain time and time again regarding atuk abah;s current state of health. Dah jadik family doctor la cam ni.. heks.. but i dont mid pickin up the responsibility as i feel that it will help to ease things and to explain the true facts about his condition.My extended family are emotional people you know.. heks..

We had to adjourn in the evenin ; as i have to work on SUnday. hmm.. dont really wanna go but have to. Atuk's condition - i cant really say.. he looked like he is improving but i've seen patients who just suddenly deteriorates . I cant say really about his prognosis.Pending maybe the best description for now .. but i'm quite ready if he has to go but i pray to god , to make it easy for him , insya- allah when the time comes..

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Anfield Magic !! Mellormania !!

Haks.. yesterday i forgot to comment on Liverpool's win over Arsenal !!! Yeah !! I was about to be tired with my Liverpool love-hate relationship . I am a keen supporter of the scousers you see... but at times , the team test your patienceto the maximum. But then , tak main ah loncat2 katak SETIA SELAMANYA !! haks.. and of course the wait was worth it !! we won against Arsenal with Melor's curling kick !! HAks.. you'll never walk alone..

i WAS IN Anfield (THE PICTURE ABOVE )in 1997 - masa tu game Liverpool Arsenal gaks.. one cup game , and Liverpool won handsomely 4 - 3.It was a dream come true to be in the stadium and the energy is so electrifying , unlike in Mesia where we tend to boo the team playing , or call referee KAYU.. heheheheh ( i do that too ) instead of cheering for the team regardless the results !!

And i can tell you , the energy from the Dutch supporters is THE BEST !!! World CUp 1998 in Marseille !! I was with the ORANGE ARMY stand then ; Imagine , one hour before the game starts - we were walking from Marseille beach to the stadium singing and cheering . In the stadium .. the hardcore supporters were singing all the time , i was not able to concentrate on the game properly . Then after the game , we were in the stadium for another hour to celebrate the 5-0 trashing of South Korea !! such carnival.. such fun !!! hakss.. wahh..such memories , nanti la kalau tera scan picture i will share it here. Liverpool. crossing my fingers that tonite's game in Carling cup will be ours !!