Tuesday, October 01, 2019

AOSRA Kochi.. Part 2 after a long time

I'll just post some pictures from the trip justto complete the post i wanted to write earlier hahaha
 first dinner in town with sushi special
 Conference centre
 Manoj preferred to sit with us lot haha
 ponteng event
 with founders of SIGRA
 jalan2 pantai Jepun
dinner in Indonesian restaurant

Stockholm syndrome

And i did it again... haha Wow, no blog post since May!! no excuses.. its just the thought blocks and issues that I am having with my own feelings.

What had happened since then? Mmmm.. I was in Madrid for the Champions League Finals and Liverpool won!! :) and my MBA group came over to JB and we went for our Singapore trip! We were in Ipoh for Anaesthesia MSA. Banyak la jugak benda.

But my highlight would be last week; PPD programme with MSF in Stockholm Sweden! That was a surprise but worth the travels to be in Scandinavia! I was shocked in the beginning of the venue as the usual GAS week is in Hong Kong. However, when i received the email I just said YES!! Haha It was quite unfortunate that i had to cancel my trip to Carstenz Pyramid which would have been a cool achievement. Had to cancel it because of the unrest in Papua. Well, the mountain is there and I will conquer it sooner or later.

Anyway, it was an interesting course that I went for as I was the only Asian with the rest of the world! We were in a small summer camp like place which had a long history of being the place where the previous royals went for holidays. The house that we were in was more than 100 years! It was in Karson but pronounced "ShaSho"! It was amazing being in Sweden and I am thankful for the opportunity.

I truly enjoyed the programme and of course the company! I met so many wonderful people who share same crazy like mindedness of humanitarian work. Insha Allah, I do hope to get my mission soon as it would be a different kind of experience to work in MSF environment. My hats off to the MSF organization who had gone from strength to strength since their initial gung ho days :) 
 midweek dinner in Stockholm
 beautiful Karson morning
Graduates Sept 2019

Thursday, May 02, 2019

AOSRA-PM Kochi,Japan 2019 Part 1

When Abbvie asked me whether I was interested to go to this conference, I wasn't sure what I should reply. I've not planned this but i knew a number of my SIGRA members are because they were invited to talk at that conference. Thats why I decided ok lets do this. This was the first place where i did not research anything about it before hand despite this will be my first time in Japan.
So there I was on my way to Japan for the first time. I decided to take the Changi-Haneda route as i thought it would be more convenient especially when coming back. Mahal sikit je la to hire transport from JB to Changi.
Nak buat cerita, the flight was at 1am so i decided to come into Singapore at 9. Guess what? No not the traffic, it was pristine at that time. The van that drove me in had some sort of record with the police and ICA! hahaha Kena la tahan kejap! Apparently the owner before had a record of hitting somebody on the road last year. So kena la jadi cam wanted for awhile. I did not press my panic button but was quite worried if I miss the flight! haha Such an experience to have.
The flight to Haneda was 7 hours. I was on board Japan Airlines. It was comfortable but my seat was a bit warm i thought. Arrived in Haneda Tokyo and transit there for my flight to Kochi later that day. That was my first introduction to Japan:) Everything was fast and instructions were clear. I had my first go at their toilet in the airport - the fully automated seat warming toilet hehehe Such a wonderful experience and very clean indeed! 
The flight to Kochi was a bit later in the afternoon. MAti kutu jugakla duduk airport haha It was very convenient to have free wifi all around as well as charger ports. Had my first pure japanese sushi for lunch! It was an effort to look for what kind of sushi I was taking hahaha 

Friday, April 26, 2019

Avengers endgame finale

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The finale of all finales! Avengers Endgame :) I watched it last night courtesy of GBS Iskandar. Its good they have this movie night outs. The first was Captain Marvel last month - and now the epic ending of the MCU saga.
Will i write spoilers for this? Hmm.. i dont think it matters in blogosphere because its not as widespread as fb or twitter. Blogs do not hold any impact as in the 2000s. It serves more of as a personal journal and i don't mind that:) In fact, happy to know that this will stay forever and be referred as per wanted.
The first hour was a bit draggy. Lots of emotions being put into the scenes. Hardcore fans would not mind, the wannabees may be bored with the melancholic story board post Thanos finger snap. When Captain Marvel appeared, Thanos was killed immediately! Haha gile anti-climax! I was laughing because everybody knows that was the point of the story but was ended so swift and easy beginning of the 3hour movie! 
But what came next was wonderful. Multiple peaks into the past of Marvel universe and i enjoyed every bit. Its about quantum physics, wormholes etc.. Tony Stark as usual the genius fella that in the end saved the day! Go team ironman!! :) 
Thor was the anti-hero of the day! haha Boroi is the trend :))) 

"Whatever it takes.."

"I love you 3000 times"

"Part of the journey is the end.."

Goodbye Thanos, Ironman, Black Widow.. huhu 

Thursday, April 11, 2019

4th mission Cambodia Part 2

The usual routine of our project after the surgery was to go into deeper areas to offer khatan. This time around Syariz chose a different province, 4 hours from Phnom Penh - next to Kampung Cham province; Thom in Chetil & one other place (haha i cannot remember the name as i write this). Its always a humble experience to go to these kampongs; it reminds one of the simple life one leads. The priorities are different with different goals. It is such a reminder of one to be humbled and of course syukur to what Allah has provide. It is a reminder to myself especially and being aware of who I am, where I go and what I do. May Allah see this as my deeds insha Allah.
As usual, my role will be the person who anaesthetize these kids; in short, the pain they have to go through is with me and Azmil! haha But I've refined my technique by applying local anaesthetic gel before poking them. I find that it reduces anxiety and a whole lot better experience for them. We do get the typical boys who would try to resist and escape from the process! 
That is part and parcel and a true reflection of our society at large. Some may face their challenge, some may dodge and some avoid altogether. Its a one of a kind experience and with the last few projects, all different experience. Alhamdulillah :) Would I do it again? Of course :) Some might vest in negativities for this; only those who wants to do it, will do it. The joy one cannot describe the peacefulness of mind. 

Thursday, April 04, 2019

4th mission to Cambodia Part 1

Alhamdulillah, the istiqamah is real. I went for my 4th trip (biannually planned since 2017) to Cambodia. I must congratulate Syariz for continuing to make this project ongoing. I am morethan happy to support for each and every project in the future. We are lucky that Muslim Care Malaysia are happy to support this cause too. 

It was sort of reunion for those who went in the first trip back in August 2017. Anis, Aida and Ku Puan came again this time (of course with Mohsin) and Dato Azmil - my counterpart from Prince Court who brought his son to join the project. There were a number of SAS alumnis who followed and it was an interesting crowd. I really do not understand why most of them with the first impression thought that i came from MCKK? Hmmm.. hahaha Kak Ros from Annur was back to and she brought her colleague. I brought Arif, my srub nurse from OT and we had a Kota Bharu surgeon to join us this time.
And as usual, our first part of the project was to perform hernia ops in children in Hospital Beyond Boundaries. I must say the area around the hospital has developed markedly that one cannot really see the HBB building anymore. Around the hospital are factories and new built houses. HBB looked a bit jaded - time to refurbish and refresh the hospital? Maybe next project :) 
In each visit there will always be a challenge. This time around we had issues with power supply! because of the current drought, the electricity supply from the hydroelectric dams were interrupted - hence the usage of genset for the power supply. We had our fair share of blackouts and having to decide on how to use the power effectively - minimal yet safe condition for surgery. 
The next was the GA machine. Mak ai.. we had few issues with leak and it was an experience to manage and decide when we could start or stop. It did not deter me and Azmil to continue with the op but of course with safety consideration high on the list! Had to do few McGyver tricks to run the cases safely! Haha 
Only those who've been to missions like this will know what it feels and how satisfied one would be after finishing the tasks. It was a worthwhile experience and nothing beats the feeling when seeing the kids going back home and their long journey home after the surgery :) 

Friday, March 22, 2019

Just be happy!

Being happy can be a challenge to few. What makes someone happy? Achieving something? rewarded? acknowledgement? Money? power? attention? 

I guess it varies from one person to another. Its not difficult to be happy. Just be happy! Haha sounds easy right? becuase it is easy to be happy. Just be happy! Simple! Just be happy! Let go of everything that you have piled up in your mind and just be happy!

All this while we have been trained to associate happy as some kind of reward. If there is nothing to celebrate, so why be happy? Adoi.. thats a sad look on life. Just let everything go especially all the problems that you have gre in your mind pockets, let it go and be happy!
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Seriously! It is when we are thankful for whatever we have, whatever that had happened, to whatever problems that beckons one should just thankful for it. Somehow being thankful will make the soul be at peace otherwise one will always mumble and complain for all the reasons that happen in life. Syukur and syukUR!

Seriously! live your life as it comes always once! Mind yourself and to heck with others. Honestly, we do spend our time thinking about others. Envious of others, jealous of their achievements, being in an indirect competition to be the perfect one, looking at what others have not given you and picking on it all the time.. haha Why lah? Why so sad? 

I used to be vengeful. So much anger in me and i dedicated my aim to do it. But i've learnt that it made me negative all the time, looking for another's fault. At times, i'd just pick on whatever flaw that i see.

Hajj 2015 was a revelation. I let that feeling go. Really let it go. And to my surprise, it brought peace to my inner self. I am in congruent with my soul. It was a relief to a burden that i had grudge on. Alhamdulillah, never felt better since. It is so nice to have nothing to think about (haha.. macam lego movie pulak) And letting all the negative go was the best that had happened to my life. 

At the moment, I am being challenged to my greatest might. It is so easy to return to all the grudges and pain that i had let go before. I know how it feels to say things just to hurt rather than to find an amicable solution. It is so sad to see how things just being turned against you. I was ready to retaliate but i did not do so for the simplest reason: I will be a hypocrite because by retaliating i am doing the same of what is done to me. I am a changed person hence i have to let it be. 

The dilemma is real but i believe that if we are in the right, it will be shown sooner or later. Patience is virtue. Saying it is easy but to maintain that waaaa.. No wonder a lot of kalamullah is about being patience! 

I guess one will realize all about sincerity. If we keep on picking on the problem and not solving it, than something is not right.. 

Salam.. Christchurch incident

When i first saw the initial part of the video, i thought it was from a game. It really looked like one so i did not continue watching as only the video was circulated. Then later, it was forwarded from other groups as well mentioning something just happened live. And i watched it again. Astaghfirullah, it was real and the way the gunman did it was exactly how you would watch playing the first view gunman game. (Origin was Doom i think).
The gunman was true to his cause. If you had looked into his fb as well as background check on him, you cannot deny his ideation and fanatism towards white supremacy. It was as real as it can be! He really planned it well knowing how many he could gun down on that gloomy Friday.
The whole world was shocked but the NZ PM really did a good job in controlling the situation. Her speech, her demenour wasspot on and she received a lot of praises on how she handled the situation. 
I guess what happened was just how one executes one's own true feeling. In this current world it is not easy to do, to be real to one's feeling. Its always how the majority would determine how the norm should be. Shootings like this is too common in Gaza but yup, nobody really cares. 
One good thing the NZ PM did was to straight away classify it as a terrorist attack which most westerners would not label it as such in previous incidents. Only when it involved muslim gunman that it is classified as terrorist. Now, the act that happened in Christchurch was true to the definition of terrorism. 
Im sure its not going to be the last of such islamophobia acts. We'll see.


Wednesday, March 20, 2019

RA Masterclass in Ayer Keroh

Oklah i thought. Melaka is not too far. Teett.. wrong! The traffic was horrendous on Saturday and i spent 3 hours on the highway before reaching the Hospital.

Thank god i was on time. Pak Dan and Amir was already there and was about to begin the hands on. This was our second programme after January in Johor. RA workshop for those in private. This time it was in Pantai Ayer Keroh ; another Pantai Sister hospital.
I've always enjoyed teaching hence i was not hesitant to participate when asked by Abbvie. Its good to share the knowledge with others and the session was short and sweet. Thank you for everybody's time. I then rushed back to Iskandar as I will be oncall that Sunday.