Monday, March 23, 2015

Chess NAG 2015 weekend

The commitment by parents is no joke. 3 days of National Age group competition. Dzaeffran participated in the under 10 category. It was the first time for him and for me! Haha This was an opportunity that does not come often. He is fortunate enough to be in the school's elite chess club. SKBJ has a strong tradition in chess and for Dzaeffran to be able to be part of the team is an achievement. 
 In a way, he represented Chess Club of Selangor to go against other participants from around the country. I was never really involve in the chess scene and it was such an eye opener. This competition is definitely for the top chess players in the country! haha i was jittery too as i don't really know how he would fare. Players looked ready to maul their opponents!  As long as tak last.. my motto.. haha
                                          Papa sent him on Saturday.
 The competition was held in Olympic Hotel, right smack in central KL. This used to be the main hotel for our athletes, being in the same vicinity as stadium Merdeka and Negara. Such memories from the past! 
                                          Bosan menunggu haha
Dzaeffran played 8 games and won 4. It was clear where he was in the rankings as i could see the level of his gameplay against his opponents.Still,  I don't think i could do what he did in the 3 days. I could see how he can be really focused and at the same time to cool.. haha What i appreciated most was his perseverence despite being at a disadvantage in the game. Memang never die attitude and he'd fight till the end not giving up. Insha Allah, that will be a good trait for him to have in facing his life in the future. 
Good job my son.. it was such a pleasure to be by your side watching you :) 

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Dude.. where's my fix!

We had a busy day yesterday. The cases kept coming, semi emergency and emergency. It was past Isha' and i have just finished my trauma case.

"Ada kes lag ini doctor... fetal distress.. EM LSCS"

Ohhh.. i am in need of my fix. My mocha pods.

"Alamak... habis la pulak.. ada kopi tak?"

"Kopi cap kapal api adalah doc.."

"Belasah jer la.. double shot please!!"

And the double shot super long black of kapal api kept me awake till i cannot sleep overnight!!  hahaha 

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Qayyum's chess tourney SKBJ open

Somehow or rather, MDQ1 loves extra co-curricular activities. I would not be surprised as I do know from whom he inherited the trait from. Last night he asked wifey whether he could join the angklung team and as the tigress..  of course no! haha He has been joining lots of activities that we thought we should limit his multi involvement for now .SKBJ is quite famous for her angklung group (got this info last weekend) but on top of what he is involved in now, cukupla dulu!
Last weekend, as one of the 30 elite members of the chess club, he was enrolled in the school's first junior chess tournament. What made the competition impressive was the participation from schools from all around the country, as the event was nationally rated.
 MDQ1 was scheduled to play in the u-12 category as there were only the u-9 and u-12 for the taking. I thought it is good for exposure especially the tournament feel. It is different from the normal social play. Tactics, intimidation, aura.. a lot of external factors that may help with your game. 
What i like about the school's chess club is their commitment; they have a coach on board and he trains them every week. Qayyum knows a number of opening and he is quite good at it, though may not be a champion or winner material at the moment. He is better off than i was at his age, main chess pun belasah je.. tau pun tactic; 4 step checkmate hahaha
Qayyum won 3 out of his 8 games. I had the opportunity to watch him play and honestly, i am amazed with his calmness. He is totally a poker person as if having no emotions. He is brave to play whoever as evident with his first opponent; he was 12 and big sized; totally intimidated if it was me. He played on and scored a win with this guy haha He has a good heart and his determination is strong. He was willing to fight till the end! I appreciated that trait a lot as he was definitely not a quitter. In the game i saw, he lost his queen early but he fought on to redeem his queen! I saw the opponent panicking but becasue qayyum was too relaxed, he made a silly mistake and paid the price! Haha cool job la budak ni..
Insha Allah, he will be joining the national junior chess open in KL during the school holidays. We will see how he will fare insha allah. 

March limbo

We are coming to mid March and the cases has picked up. Last month, the number of cases we had were awful. I guess because of the festive period of chinese new year. It is a reflex to feel a little bit worried when the number of cases declined after a good high towards the end of 2014. Being green in private practice, i reckon its normal to have that worry since my income depends a lot on the number of cases i do! Haha Its purely business, if there is none, then i will not be paid. 
That is the difference when one works as an employee and becoming independent. The services we offer is considered a business and soon enough, we are affected by GST. It is unfortunate because it will not be really our charges that will escalate, but the total cost to the consumers ie patients. We will see what will be transpired when it comes. 
 I have myself been a slacker in updating my blog.Life has been hectic at home too when wifey when for her courses during the weekend. What courses? haha a mix of duniawi and ukhrawi! Alhamdulillah, I am glad that she now have something outside the house as an interest. It is good for your mental health being involved in something other than your personal life. It releases your stress though it can create more stress haha
February has also been a reflecting month for me. Life is plentiful and I am thankful to Allah for his blessings. The future is bright and it is about options and steps that we take. Some risky some playing safe but the decisions made should be with knowledge and a bit of wisdom. 
Happy March everyone! 

Saturday, February 28, 2015

Sometimes we have to be more than what we are

Having being told of one having a terminal illness can be a nightmare. Its the sudden news of a diagnosis which brings death to the front. The one reason why some of us can be obsessive in going for medical checks often is the big letter C. A taboo to be spoken about but a definite prognosis beckons. Being in the medical field, it is often a situation where you don't really want to be involved in. Unfortunately for some of us, breaking this news becomes a responsibility. 
I will come across these patients in different stages. Most often, the point where surgical intervention is needed, either in emergency situations or after electively discovered. Honestly i cannot imagine being in their shoes, having being told, yup.. you have the big C. 
I sat down and talked to one of my patients the other day. Even though i was there for pre op assessment, i spent more time being a doctor rather than as anaesthetist. The unfortunate diagnosis was confirmed just few days back and it is a big one. I am sure he is still in shock, I could see in his eyes the tears but he holds it back as we talk. His family is in shock with the wife not really accepting it well. The psycho social aspect in this matter is very important; as the mental health should also be reviewed. Its important, as fighting cancer can be a mind blowing journey with full of uncertainties. 
Yup, it was just a short discussion of what it is all about. I encourage him to read about what he has, so that when he meets up with the oncologist, he and his family will be ready for questions rather than listening and absorbing. That is the usual practice in asian community. As the one managing them, we should explain that the treatment for cancer is a journey which needs a lot of strength and courage, full family support an istiqamah. Yang penting usaha bukan semata-mata berserah sahaja. And whatever the result will be, we redha. 
It was something i felt i had to do, the chat. As i believe as doctors, we are still human. Being humane and providing empathy is something that we should all do. I am not sure whether i did help but i do really hope i did especially for the stage which he is at, at the moment. 
My prayers for his oncoming journey. 

Friday, February 27, 2015

You're 8 today Qaisya!

Happy birthday to my 1st daughter Qaisya!! Many happy returns!
The little girl who is growing slowly but surely, the one with a distinct personality which amazes me how great Allah Almighty is.
She can be grumpy and self centered, but she is smart and intelligent.
She knows what she wants and what she can achieve.
Insha Allah, my dear.. you will be what you want to be :) 

Thursday, February 26, 2015

Revision and revelation

I've been attending the general hajj course organized by Tabung Haji in Kelana Jaya mosque every Sunday morning. I try to attend despite sometimes being oncall. In private, your oncall is unlike in the government as patients are not as many and over the weekend unless it is super rgent that you have to rush to do the cases.
Honestly, i was reluctant to join the course as it was all revision knowledge for 14 weeks. What is to learn in that very long period? Setakat rukun and wajib haji, larangan ihram etc.. not that difficult to Revision of subjects during my secondary school which should not be that difficult to be reread. I was tops 5 year in a row for agama in secondary school.
Or was I? 
I was wrong. 
How could i assume as such when we talk about knowledge of ibadah.
Indeed, attending is a revelation.A revelation of mind and soul. Something i did not expect. It is about its feel. And a similar feeling indeed during my Gaza mission journey the other day.
I learn new things every time. May not be academic per say, but that is the gem and gold about hajj. As i look back the journey of hajj began when i agreed to perform it by Tabung Haji.
Indeed, it is an invitation from god.
A new meaning to life, a turn over to renew my vows with him.
Insha Allah, my azam to become a better person and understand the true meaning of hajj. 

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

The equinox is here again

After the rainy season spell, guess what.. the heat is back! It has been a warm week so far and one can notice it via the scorching hot sun everyday. My career would put me in OT the whole day so I am not affected directly, but coming back home and feeling it to be warm is real!  The threat of drought may be sooner than expected. Such irony, when at one time we were overflowed with water and now, we are getting less of it. The 2014 drought comes back into mind, oh such unpredictable weather nowadays.
The KKM has come out with these posters. I reckon it is a very good conscientious effort! To warn the public about the dangers of heat stroke. Ironically, at the moment i am finalising an article with Prof YK Chan regarding heat stroke. But it is more academic rather than for public reading.
So guys.. stay safe. Do not underestimate the dangers of heat stroke.

A new year of the goat in zoo negara

Belated Gong Xi Fa Chai ! We celebrated the chinese new year in a holiday manner. We did not go anywhere fancy but decided to go to Zoo Negara. It has been a while since i last step in Zoo Negara. It would be nice for the kids as this is the right time and age to bring them there. Besides, the youngest 2 has yet to be brought to this wonderful zoo of ours in Ulu Klang.
We were off early in the morning and parking was plentiful. It is much more expensive now to enter zoo negara especially if one plans to see the two pandas Ling Ling and Xing Xing who arrived mid last year to our zoo. However, i thought that it is more reasonable than a miserly rate because it does cost a lot to maintain a zoo. Overseas zoo prices can be atrocious and i dont see why we should not charge more. However, it should be complemented with satisfaction and good service. 
 Of course, the main attraction this time is Xing Xing and Ling Ling. We waited for the 1130 slot because it is during this time the pandas will be fed. Pandas can be really sensitive and it proved so during our visit. Xing Xing was happily munching his bamboo shoots when Laikha decided to shriek! hahaha and guess what, the panda ran for cover and looked terrified. Remaining still amongst the stones of the artificial river hahaha We were told to be quiet from the start and quite unfortunate to witness what they mentioned were true :( 
 The animal show they had in the afternoon was not too bad. Compared to the zoo many years ago we have improved. The 2 seals were the main stars of the show without a doubt. It was nice to see how the coliseum were full packed with families waiting for the show. This is where i reckon the zoo can improve on with better animal shows. I am confident that we will match the other international zoos in the future. 
Thumbs up to the current management of zoo negara. I was here last probably about 6-7 years ago and i can see a lot of improvement to our zoo. The 2 pandas must have changed the fortune and attention to zoo negara, nevertheless we should love our zoo as a whole. The animals i must say is a far contrast from how they were many years ago. The look sharper and healthier! Seriously! I always remember our zoo animals looking unhealthy and not well kempt. The animals are much better looked after now i guess :)