When i joined UiTM as a trainee, there has always been one thing in mind. To prove myself and to show that UITM can. Alhamdulullah, it has been almost 8 years and i am where i am at the moment.Things that i envision for the department is progressing well, of course at a smaller scale with CTC but it is definitely better than nothing or perhaps better than our other colleagues out of the elder 3 (which are UM/UKM/USM).Of course the goal would be our own full fledge teaching hospital but looking at how things are going on now, it will be at least 4 years from now.
In a way, how i have projected my future 10 years ago Alhamdulillah have been reached. I wanted to be a specialist and via the acedemia I've managed to garner my masters. My Australian stint was indeed rezeki and i thank Allah for his blessings for that. I guess now would be the time to project my next 20-30 years. What do i want and what do i want to achieve. This puts me in a dilemma as i am in a crossroad and i need to decide which will be me ultimate pathway.What are my goals in UiTM ? to become an academician cum professor? A leadership role as into the deanery or higher authority leadership?
I am asking myself hard at the moment what would I like to achieve. Of course, this is the material gains and of course i should not forget the spiritual line which is more important. I am getting older by the day and the sight of white hair certainly shakles me everytime i see myself in the mirror.
Decisions.. decisions.. not easy to decide. In the end, i have to ask myself, and been reflecting this for the past one week.. What do i really want?