It was a very jittery day. I was on call after a three weeks - some may consider it cruel considering the emotional turmoil one is having. My mind was everywhere and it showed so much when i induced my first patient for the day ! I did not reject to the roster maker earlier , perhaps at that time too numb to even think about passing yesterday ; results day.
Alhamdulillah. I passed. I passed ? yup..i passed. My specialist informed me earlier in the morning secretly before the official results were posted in the department. I am so thankful to god for his graciousness ; I felt so overwhelmed yesterday. Lost my voice , not because i shouted or screamed my lungs out so much ( hehehehe ) ; but i guess it was due to the tremendous stress for the whole of last week.
Not everybody made it though , and that is the sad part. I felt sad for my colleagues who were unlucky ; to the extent few may not being able to continue the course. I am devastated because i know that these people are excellent doctors , a rare breed that is very dedicated to their patients.